I will be honest with you. I’m not ready to share with you my list of dreams just yet. I know this contradicts the entire premise of a blog about going after my dreams right?!
But I also confess that I worry what others will think of me. In many aspects of my life I have made great strides in this area. I remind myself often, “What other people think of me is none of my business”. The more I allowed my self-talk to embrace this as a new “Truth”, the more true it actually became. HOWEVER, this is a brand new adventure and that old mental habit has reared its ugly head once again. Which really just tells me I have more growth in me about “people pleasing”. I recognize that I am allowing myself to be in a very vulnerable position by putting myself out there in this way. I believe this has triggered the old pattern of thinking. It is clear that this is a mental and emotional barrier that I must challenge and overcome if I am going to succeed in achieving my dreams.
So I vow to you, that I will continue to be honest and real with myself and then to share it with you, the reader. I will identify what blocks me or slows me down in the journey of realizing my dreams. I warn you, I fear there may be many patterns of thinking that I thought I had fully tackled. But I guess I am okay with that. Ultimately I really do want to grow. And I can’t do that without the inner discomfort and often times pain, that change requires.
And you know what? I feel more empowered just writing about all this. It’s as if another ounce of resolve has been unleashed within me. Yes! I CAN do this!
I also “know that I know that I know” I am not alone. And that brings me comfort. It makes me wish I had a seat around the table with successful women to be privy to their thoughts and struggles within along their journey. I would love that.
I am giving myself homework for the week. It is this:
* Each day I am going to write in my journal, why I can achieve my dreams. I won’t repeat the same reason twice.
And the second part is:
* I am going to choose a new “Truth” to speak aloud, all throughout the day, even if just whispering it softly. I have done this many times before to successfully tackle my inner critic when it comes to professional self-doubt. This gives me absolute faith that it will succeed again. Because what happens, is this new truth? It seeps into my very soul and I end up believing it. Oh the emotional freedom this brings!!
I am going to do this because it builds confidence that I desperately lack right now. It also chips away at my “people pleasing” tendencies. I can’t REALLY go after all my dreams if I worry about what other people will think of me. It ultimately does not matter what others think. But what is CRITICAL is what I think of myself.
What I think, becomes what I believe. What I think and believe drive my actions. If I can’t see myself achieving my dreams I won’t. And that is no longer acceptable to me.
I would love to hear what mental and emotional blocks you have, those things that impede you from living your best life. Shoot me an email. Perhaps we can learn from one another. 😊
Today is one more day of action, one more day into this new journey. I started out writing with such timidness in my heart. Right now, I feel excitement again. And that is a very good thing.
Blessings dear ones,